Random Thoughts of A Brown-Eyed Soul
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Hello everyone!! It’s been eternity since I’ve posted anything. January 28th was my 6 month anniversary. I can’t believe it’s already been 6 months!! Here is a pic to show where I started and where I’m at now!
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Here are some up close pics of my hair. Some of them aren’t the best but I hope it gives every one an idea of what my hair looks like!
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About a week ago I posted a very candid story of how I was feeling since I cut my hair. I realized in that moment that deciding to go natural is a HUGE step. I was feeling weak, alone, and insecure because people were saying things about my hair, laughing at it, staring at it….I felt so exposed. Now I see things much clearer. One of my good friends said this to me when I was feeling really down, ” You know though you’ve had long hair for most of your life and I was crazy about your long hair, I have to say that I like your hair short.” Of course I asked why he likes it short, And he says ” Because you are no longer hiding behind your hair. I can actually see your pretty face. Plus it’s just hair….it will grow back.” And he is absolutely right. It is just hair. So now I am soooo happy to say that I am finally loving and accepting my hair just the way it is. Yeah people will stare, whisper, and laugh at me….but you know what? I don’t even care :)
Happy One Month anniversary to me!!
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Photos from Big Chop
So I realized that I never posted pics of my hair RIGHT after I decided to big chop. I know I look a little sad in the pictures. I was still processing the crazy, yet beautiful thing I just did to my hair. lol Enjoy!
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10 months natural, 1 month post big-chop. I’m so proud of myself for sticking with it and not giving up!! :) (Taken with Instagram)
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Good morning!! :) (Taken with Instagram)
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So bored (Taken with Instagram)
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Just gotta keep it real
When I made the decision to go natural, I knew it was going to be the hardest, yet bravest thing I had ever done. But dang…..does it have to be this hard??? My hair is my baby. I’m protective of it. It was my identity. It was a part of me…it defined me. I was always known as the girl with the nice hair. To go from perfectly straight, relaxed healthy hair to short super curly hair is a lot to take in. Especially when society pounds in your head that straighter hair is much more beautiful, appealing, acceptable. I don’t regret my decision on going natural. It’s honestly been the best thing for my hair and my health. But this has been the hardest 4 weeks….I’ve been laughed at by strangers. People have side-eyed my hair and will just stare at it. Even my brother laughed at me. I was expecting to feel so exhilarated and liberated when I b/c’d, but that minute amount of courage I had disappeared completely. I learn everyday that you have to have thick skin when you decide to chop all your hair off, especially when you go to a predominantly white school and your fellow classmates will never understand the reasoning behind why you did what you did……so I’m not afraid to say that I really miss my straight hair. Though I’ve received many compliments about my hair and how it must be awesome to have naturally curly hair I’m still tempted to just straighten it and call it a day. To stop the stares, the laughing, the constant scrutiny of others, the insecurity I feel. I want to feel secure and accepted and not ridiculed just because my hair isn’t like everyone else’s. I’m hoping as time goes on and as my hair grows more that I’ll be able to TRULY embrace my hair and not care what other people think about it. That I will be able to walk around proud and confident….but until I experience that sweet and beautiful moment I hope I will have some support to help me stick with the decision I made. I can’t turn back…
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Hoping this works well in my hair! (Taken with Instagram)
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Missing my curls
So last night I got bored with my hair and decided to straighten it. I was amazed on how fast its growing. Its grown about an inch :) But since my hair is still pretty choppy from literally chopping it off 3 weeks ago I can only wear my hair in a Mohawk. Boo. So I’m going to wash it and get my curls back. lol
